I have made a little discovery. I'm ashamed that recently I've been questioning how come I love Nicci so much, and that if I feel the same for her as I did a year ago.

I got my answer today, when she missed showing up (or is at least taking her longer) at the time she said she could log in. I suppose I still love her way too much as the clock ticks by only deepens the hollowness I'm feeling at her not showing up.

So, it's not that I love her any less... it's just that I learned to endure her absence.